Cdr_Zeta

Greetings... This will be my LAST POST on the forums ... wish me luck ... I know I have had luck and I will be okay I think ... Some words have been left out obviously...if you think about this poem, you will discover its meaning and why we (I) wrote it. It has a name sorry i cant show it: The foghorn sounds, in the ........ sea, for wayward sailors, my love and me. I always feel lost, in that endless sea, But the foghorn sounds, and comforts me. She was my rock and inspiration, Who made dreams come true, My darling ........ has left this world, I am so sad and blue. A dream once shared, on the ...... .. ...... for now my love is gone, and I am left in pain. I return on a journey, to that .... .......... and the smell of the sea, that she loved the most. She sets her sails, my darling wife, Tis the ......... , the love of my life. There is a place in a lovely town, The .......... by the sea. I've never been, to her place of peace, Maybe some day, she will call me. My heart is so broken, and I am so alone, She has set her sails, for ports unknown. Soon I will join her, as we guide together, on stormy seas, and ocean weather. I married an angel, from heaven above, Now my angel departs, on the day of love. We will set our sails, my darling wife, She's the ........., the Love Of My Life. I am sure I will be in touch with the moderators and whenever I get back here to KSP it will be under a different name. All of my posts will probly have to go...funny...I have always been really good at doing one thing: Starting Over. This must also mean one good thing...NEVER GIVE UP THE SHIP. Thank you all for the support ... LIFE must go on as they say, and I "WILL" be back some day.

Dear Kerbalmates .... So I am reall so sorry I havnt been here ... KSP is the best program for me you all know that ... My loving wife passed away on Valentines Day Feb 14, 2016 at 9:30PM ... I have been through turmoil these last few months ... taking care of business. Just when my life is starting to pick up, I now have a serious problem with identity theft and will be asking to have my account suspended here and any attempts to unlock it will have to be investigated...I guess KasperVid is the person to PM this to do this. My Twitch accounts will go...no matter anyways on that I have been so upset over everything, but I have options in my life and lessons to learn dont we all...it was just sooo sad to have someone get this disease for someone that worked so hard around my home; it just wasnt fair...I hope to play and stream KSP again someday...I am still waiting for 1.1 anyways... I have played defense in these morons for the last few days and lost a night of sleep. I am a pretty good chess player, and today I may either make a move or let things ride and just play more defense and see how far these people are willing to go. For all intents and purposes I have lost whatever reputation my internet names have given me ... one thing I havnt lost are the friends I have made ... and anything I do in my life outside of normal activities is my own personal business and I would never compromise this for any reason ... in this case here it just wouldnt make any sense. When one does something stupid in life not of their own fault really, and an identity is compromised (internetwise), it is a REAL problem and can give you massive headaches and can ruin your life for, just a little while<<< NOT FOREVER. Like my wife would say and do, just laugh oh ha ha ha you made your bed now you have to lie in it. Well I havnt slept in my bed since she passed I am in her recliner every night...and these perpetraitors (yeah I spelt everything wrong!) have another thing coming to them; they dont know who they are messing with here...ME. Anyways I shouldnt be venting my problems I just want you and the moderators to know. Sooo yeah thats my story now ... whoever as the ability to suspend my account, PM me as soon as possible ... I would like this post to stay up for awhile ... I wanted to make one last post ... you all will be the first to read it, it is a poem my wife and I wrote the next morning after she passed...in fact I am writing it now and will post it...

Hello and thank you all for support...I had 2 weeks of heavy lifting on her and finally got a hospice bed in the house for a few days and I couldn't move her anymore. Then they took her by ambulance to special hospice home where we been these last days...she had a restless day today no food no water can't swallow. I am at the hospice home with her now almost 24/7...I think we spoke our last peace yesterday and she recognized my son tonite. Almost 30 years with the most brave and courageous woman I ever known right to the end...she is in medicated sleep I don't know she may wake one more time...I have been so sore and tired these last few weeks I will be glad when this is over..I expect at least a few months to grieve but I have plans this summer...it was our dream and we shared many good times on the coastal waters of Maine on our boats...she never had the chance to see our new sailboat except my videos. She will be with me to watch over when I set sail this spring... I will miss her and may name the boat in her honor somehow...I expect her to pass this weekend...I will keep in touch I plan on a 24hr livestream of ksp for donations I really need help...I will stay in touch..thank you all for being here for me...I am very tired and I will miss her so much... Commander Zeta I

Hi, So I am having tons of problems I cant get a part to load into KSP; I am trying Unity 4.2.2 now instead of 4.6.1 (I dont use animations so I didnt see a problem but I did notice an animation portion in my projects; I could have tried deleting them. I am streamin today if anyone wants to hop on over; it would be great if my Unity version was the only problem but I just cant see it. Commander Zeta

Greetings, I will be off and on this afternoon still trying to import a simple part into KSP; this has been very frustrating; I think I will download Unity 4.2.2 just for kicks. CmdrZeta

hi... i am still tryin to get a part made and loaded into ksp ... info says unity 4.2.2 ... ksp unity version is 4.6.4...my version is 4.6.1...i give up i am still tryin ... cmdr zeta

Greetings, Today working on still trying to get a part into KSP ... Using Blender and Unity ... I will be on for about an hour ... Cmdr Zeta

Greetings, So...there are 2 ways to make mesh colliders...1) in Blender (easy) 2) in Unity (vertex limitations?). Question is which one...maybe it doesnt matter; we are trying Blender for ease of use. My parts are too small or non-existent; I dunno why...I am gonna try again tonite... Cmdr Zeta

Greetings, Tonite...Learning Blender for KSP Part Models.. Still tryin to get a part into KSP. Commander Zeta

Greetings, In my streams there may be occasions where I am not at the keyboard due to personal issues at home. Tonite...I am gonna try to finalize part sizing and scaling and orientation an such for KSP models. I have relearned Blender and Unity and am gonna work on a preliminary design for the BIO LABs ! Cmdr Zeta

Hello, Well I got my first part in...altho it is very small so no success yet but I am gettin close and I may just work on my design tonite ! Cmdr Zeta

Hello, Heh...how do we know Kerbals spout humanoid byproducts?! One suggestion was that they were homanoid plants ! Or maybe they are nitrogen breathing intelligences ?! And here we are converting CO2 to O2 and water to air an such ! Afterall, they are green-skinned ! I hope they arent Algae-based ! It would kind of put a damper on Algae food ! I havnt gone back to the wiki's and roleplay for Kerbals. For now I am using them as humanoids; if they are green maybe they got some Vulcan blood !? Cmdr Zeta

Hello, I am still trying to get a part made to import into KSP; until I succeed I will leave the contest open; no takers? Ok last chance; I give you some hints...think Universal Storage...expandable space station...gravity...a recent movie ! Cmdr Zeta

Hello, I am going to try again to get a part made from Unity to KSP; I seem to be having problems. Cmdr Zeta