I think a whole bunch of the paranoia comes from one of my Kerbollo missions. I was doing a routine Mun landing/return (back when there was no science) and I came in a little too fast on the orbital rendezvous. The lander took out the main engine on the command module. I thought, "Ah, that's no big deal. I'll just dock the lander and use that engine!" Guess what hit the main engine. The docking port. -snip- So I had a lander with no docking ports, no parachutes, and room only for 2, and a CSM with no engine but room for three. I got everyone into the CSM, but never took the time to send a rescue craft. So they were stuck there, forever. I know it's just a game, but still... I think there might be something wrong with me.