I'm sure that I, and the most of us, can forgive you for whatever you did, or did not do. You did a lot for the community, and we all make mistakes. You will always be our captain, even when everything seems that it can't go any worse!
By any chance, do you have MechJeb, and set it to RetroGrade? If yes, try and use ASAS and just point it up, to the middle of the blue part on your Nav-ball.
Heh, I found out that you explode when you come to close to the sun when my manned Jool probe failed to intercept Jool (damn time warp), and dropped into Kerbin-Prime.
I game on my desktop, but sometimes play OpenTTD on my laptop, in a break. Or in college, when I don't feel like listening to my teacher teach about a syntax I already know.
I use Avast!, it's free, and has a silent mode, that only gets in your face if there is a virus, or other malicious file. It has had no problems with KSP, or other games.