totm nov 2023 Thread to discuss negative things in a very general way, just see where it goes y'know?

[kerbiloid]

4 hours ago, AlamoVampire said:

i was forced into watching an ad for who knows what, but, the fact I was forced into watching an ad on solitaire just hit me wrong. i dont know if its the fact that ads are becoming ever more intrusive into life <youtube with its 5-10 mandatory ads prior to skips in longer videos with fewer so called ad breaks as an example>

They say (I haven't used it myself) that several years ago rutube (one of the local alternatives to youtube) was also opening a modal popup window, where you were asked to properly answer the questions on the just shown ad video, to close the popup and watch what you wanted.

[DDE]

2 hours ago, kerbiloid said:

They say (I haven't used it myself) that several years ago rutube (one of the local alternatives to youtube) was also opening a modal popup window, where you were asked to properly answer the questions on the just shown ad video, to close the popup and watch what you wanted.

As of now, RuTube is only as bad as YouTube ten years ago.

Which, however, isn't too good when ad-free YouTube is still (intermittently) available.

[Nuke]

the day youtube forces ads is the day i stop watching youtube. with ublock under firefox, there are no ads. there is also the bing trick, where if you search for specific videos on bing, you can watch them without ads. but were not there yet.

[AlamoVampire]

I just had a moment that hurt me emotionally. Im just scrolling youtube shorts and tripped over a short about my city. It involves something from right around when my mom moved here with my dad. My very first instinct when seeing this short? Was to think: “I should go visit my momma tomorrow and see if she….” Then the harsh slap of reality hit me. I cant go visit my momma tomorrow. Then it hit me again that in just a few days it will be Thanksgiving. Im here, Im so very alone. My momma isnt here and I cant stand the thought of Thanksgiving or Christmas or joy or happiness or celebrating anything.

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Edited November 24, 2024 by AlamoVampire

[AlamoVampire]

Why do people insist on damaging their hearing? Im sitting a good 15 feet from this truck in a drive thru and the bass from his “music” is making my lungs vibrate and ears hurt. I cannot imagine how harsh it is in his truck. Worse yet while i can understand some words (ones not buried under the awful bass) its utter garbage “music”. What hes listening to makes beiber seem like he came from juliard and bieber is no better than rusted flatware being ground in a disposal. Now its far louder since i started typing. Good grief

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his bass was so egregious that after they pushed him forward off the window i saw his headlights flickering in time with the bass. He will be deaf by 40. Im stunned by it. 022011262024

Edited November 26, 2024 by AlamoVampire

[kerbiloid]

The rumor is that as such subwoofer roaring, as well as night bikers' and street racers' farting and screaming, are transferred via the ground and their seats to their down end of the torso, it is their mating call, like the whales have.

Edited November 26, 2024 by kerbiloid

[DDE]

8 hours ago, AlamoVampire said:

Why do people insist on damaging their hearing? Im sitting a good 15 feet from this truck in a drive thru and the bass from his “music” is making my lungs vibrate and ears hurt. I cannot imagine how harsh it is in his truck. Worse yet while i can understand some words (ones not buried under the awful bass) its utter garbage “music”. What hes listening to makes beiber seem like he came from juliard and bieber is no better than rusted flatware being ground in a disposal. Now its far louder since i started typing. Good grief

One interesting thing my vinyl-obsessed father notes is that a lot of the "boomboxes" seem to be explicitly built with the speakers pointing outwards. It's louder for people around the listener than it is for them - conspicuous consumption at its finest.

Might be the same with this particular sort of car audio. Me, I'm too busy admiring the [redacted] of a [redacted] who drives up and down our street in an old G-class with a modded "muffler" that sounds like a howitzer and, I kid you not, a semi-improvised police dash flasher. Pretty sure the loud music will be next on the menu.

[AlamoVampire]

8 hours ago, DDE said:

admiring the [redacted] of a [redacted] who drives up and down our street in an old G-class with a modded "muffler" that sounds like a howitzer and, I kid you not, a semi-improvised police dash flasher. Pretty sure the loud music will be next on the menu.

Fun mental image! You should hear some of the exhaust systems of the rednecks in my area. Makes howitzers tame by comparison. For music louder is never better. 
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[AlamoVampire]

Less than 24 hours until Thanksgiving and the reality of it just slapped me again. I feel so very alone. I miss my momma so much.

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its Thanksgiving. I hate it. Im feeling so lonely.

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Edited November 28, 2024 by AlamoVampire

[cubinator]

I've been very stressed this week about some stuff that's not actually very consequential, but since I don't have a lot else going on it's kind of ballooned in my head. At least I've kind of realized how to build some solutions in the next couple days, so hopefully I can feel better soon.

Also the job search remains completely busted.

[AlamoVampire]

Ive been so focused on missing my momma today that i screwed up yesterday. I had bought a little butterball turkey for thanksgiving, just a 3.5 pound breast roast. Its been in my freezer since i got it 2-3 weeks ago. Well I was supposed to thaw it yesterday for today. I didnt. I screwed myself out of my turkey today. Worse yet? Today was my first thanksgiving without my momma. Did my own dad wish me a happy thanksgiving or see how i was doing? Nope. Only one person wished me a happy thanksgiving and it was my friends father. Some thanksgiving. Bah humbug!

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Edited November 29, 2024 by AlamoVampire

[AlamoVampire]

i cant and will not speak for others, but, lately ive felt invisible. stacked with feeling alone, missing my momma, and im in the works for a miserable holiday season. i even had my neighbor help me with putting up my christmas lights this year and frankly i did not want to, but, i chose to do so in memory of my momma, which just makes me feel all the more miserable right now.

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[Mr. Kerbin]

On 11/28/2024 at 9:09 PM, AlamoVampire said:

Ive been so focused on missing my momma today that i screwed up yesterday. I had bought a little butterball turkey for thanksgiving, just a 3.5 pound breast roast. Its been in my freezer since i got it 2-3 weeks ago. Well I was supposed to thaw it yesterday for today. I didnt. I screwed myself out of my turkey today. Worse yet? Today was my first thanksgiving without my momma. Did my own dad wish me a happy thanksgiving or see how i was doing? Nope. Only one person wished me a happy thanksgiving and it was my friends father. Some thanksgiving. Bah humbug!

 

On 11/29/2024 at 9:49 PM, AlamoVampire said:

i cant and will not speak for others, but, lately ive felt invisible. stacked with feeling alone, missing my momma, and im in the works for a miserable holiday season. i even had my neighbor help me with putting up my christmas lights this year and frankly i did not want to, but, i chose to do so in memory of my momma, which just makes me feel all the more miserable right now.

Well, guess I should tell you I hope you have a merry Christmas. 
Let’s see…

how does this work?

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Edit: post copied and merged. Thrice!

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Edited December 2, 2024 by Mr. Kerbin

[AlamoVampire]

7 hours ago, Mr. Kerbin said:

 

Well, guess I should tell you I hope you have a merry Christmas. 
Let’s see…

how does this work?

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Edit: post copied and merged. Thrice!

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Thank you! Thanks for letting me know i exist and stuff.  Also if youre going to use that time stamp id suggest using a 0 on dates 1-9 just to more easily delineate it  but you are by no means obligated to. Now i wonder if after 8 years of me doing it if it will catch on? Wow i feel old lol.

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[Mr. Kerbin]

6 hours ago, AlamoVampire said:

Thank you! Thanks for letting me know i exist and stuff.  Also if youre going to use that time stamp id suggest using a 0 on dates 1-9 just to more easily delineate it  but you are by no means obligated to. Now i wonder if after 8 years of me doing it if it will catch on? Wow i feel old lol.

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Of course you exist!

You can read this post, right?

Okay then.

Let’s try this again!

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[Mr. Kerbin]

Edit: post doubled?

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Edited December 2, 2024 by Mr. Kerbin

[AlamoVampire]

16 minutes ago, Mr. Kerbin said:

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Would i be correct in guessing alaska by your time code? 
ive felt invisible these last few days. Between screwing up my thanksgiving dinner by not thawing my turkey, to no reaction to my posts to my question to the mods going unanswered to basically everyone around me (my neighborhood/family) telling me when my momma died how sorry they were but completely forgetting i exist on my first thanksgiving without her. I honestly know what scrooge feels like in a christmas carol to what george bailey feels in its a wonderful life. Its eating me alive ya know? It feels like my cat is the only living creature that notices i exist or even cares.

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forums been super glitchy…

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Edited December 2, 2024 by AlamoVampire

[Mr. Kerbin]

1 hour ago, AlamoVampire said:

Would i be correct in guessing alaska by your time code? 

Not quite. 

Hmm. Maybe you can eat  the turkey for Christmas?

1 hour ago, AlamoVampire said:

Its eating me alive ya know?

Yeah. It's a  horrible feeling.

1 hour ago, AlamoVampire said:

forums been super glitchy…

That we can agree on.

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Edited December 2, 2024 by Mr. Kerbin
forgot

[AlamoVampire]

24 minutes ago, Mr. Kerbin said:

Hmm. Maybe you can eat  the turkey for Christmas?

Took 2 days to thaw. Made it saturday. Ive a chunk left for tonight after i get up this evening.

25 minutes ago, Mr. Kerbin said:

Not quite

Looking at your post from about 20 min ago has me thinking pacific time zone now… when i looked earlier i thought i saw a 3 hour time difference lol. So either cali, oregon, washington state or western canada. Fun time guessing lol. 
 

28 minutes ago, Mr. Kerbin said:

Yeah. It's a  horrible feeling.

Beyond so. But publicly suffice to say while being alone has its advantages from time to time, being forced to confront the solitude stinks

off to bed i go. My sleep schedules so borked lol

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[AstroWolfie]

The IT guys blocked a bunch of extensions on school-issued chromebooks due to some students downloading games and stuff.  They do this every so often, but they hit my ad blockers this time.

 

every.

single.

blocker.

[Lisias]

Fairings are overrated.

Proof:

Spoiler

 

[Nuke]

ive never been wary to spell it out in certain terms that i hate the holiday season. after much heel dragging i finally put the tree up and i spent the last week strategically sleeping during every free event in the paper that mom wants to go to but i cannot fathom why (its probibly the snacks). never mind that such crowds are a source of panic attacks for me, and they come so fast that i never get the recovery time an introvert needs. my opinion never really matters, she is dependent on me for all her social activities even though she is fully capable of doing it on her own. the only up side to all of this is that my racing heart might rupture in the process and end my suffering. bah humbug.

[AlamoVampire]

@Nuke as a guy who just lost his own mom i encourage you to spend time with yours rather than avoid doing so. I understand crowds are an issue for you, but trust me when i say the time will come with speed you are not ready for when you no longer have a chance to make memories and spend time with her. Id give anything to have just one more Christmas with my momma. To have her make her Christmas dinner. Regret is a potent and insidious poison. Treasure the chance you have now. One day you will join me on this side of the window and it will come all too fast.

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Edited December 9, 2024 by AlamoVampire
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[AlamoVampire]

Im getting to the point with something that im seriously considering filing a complaint with 3 separate attorneys general over it. I cant go into more specifics for reasons, i want to ask: is it worth it or wrong of me to take that action? No nothing to do with ksp at all.

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Edited December 10, 2024 by AlamoVampire

[Jacke]

17 hours ago, AlamoVampire said:

Im getting to the point with something that im seriously considering filing a complaint with 3 separate attorneys general over it. I cant go into more specifics for reasons, i want to ask: is it worth it or wrong of me to take that action? No nothing to do with ksp at all.

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I'm not quite sure what the issue is.  As I'm not sure if it's connected to your previous post.  But if you feel you have a true grievance, try to determine what's the best path for your to take to attempt to redress it, even if only in part.  That can be hard on you, so it's not a decision to take lightly.  Take care, dude.